Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips!

I haven't done this blog thingy in a while..... too busy......

and just when i thought it was all over, now i have to memorize codes and study for a business test:(

oh well. MONTREAL IS ONLY A MONTH AWAY!!

I can actually see it already. Actually it's quite blurry....
anyways.

so disney is fucked. I cant believe i watched the brave little toaster when i was little and i didnt end up being a serial killer.

Im so tiered.

This isnt working out....

OH! you know whats cool? Shrooms for Alice is cool. I have the song stuck in my head. u guys need to record all 3 and send them to me so i can listen to them all the time and be Mel.

What are your guys opinion on York vs Trent? What do u think about me living on my own in Peterbourough? Good side, you guys could come visit me all the time and It would be awesome! Bad side, I wouldn't live close anymore and i would miss everyone. Opinions?

Bananas 4011
fuji apples 4131
granny smith apples 4139
red delicious 4016
golden delicious 4020
brocoli 4060
asparagus 4080
lemons 4053
raspeberries 4054
blueberries 4240
strawberries 4250
cabbage 4069
mango 4959
other type of mango 4312
seedless oranges 4012
bartlett pears 4409
D'anjou pears 4416
green grapes 4022
red grapes 4023
black grapes 4056
plums 4040
limes 4048
kiwi 4030

i know more but im lazy.

Pizza.

in the words of Sean Connery.... Don't think, WRITE!

I wrote these two poem/freestyle thingys without thinking, just letting the words flow from my pen. I edited 2 lines in the second poem but other than that these are the exact ones i wrote down. I like doing this, it's fun and I like the end results:)

I GOT INTO TRENT BABY!!


dancing thunder, lightning strikes
easing up from all these fights
getting used to tortured blows
through your gashes your blood flows
leaking out like pouring rain
dripping dropping through the drain
nothing more but silenced breathing
body dying, stomach heaving
all is gone, but isnt lost
the truth is crumpled up and tossed
no more reason to find answers
everyone you know is in danger
looking up to see your face
they see you, you see disgrace
smash the mirror, watch it break
let it cut you for your sake



captive minds are slowly creeping
lie in silence, alone and weaping
trapped with nowhere left to go
no more feelings left to show
do the things you never could
forget all the woulds and shoulds
live the life your dying to
dont forget that you are you
society makes up bullshit lies
trapping us like flies, we die
with nothing more to say, no reason
this is not our season
let the rain pour, snow fall
after all, we've lost it all
we have the power to set things straight
but we keep ending up doing figure eights
circle after circle, it never ends
waiting for the road to bend
ending up in the same place
led by a shockingly familiar face
we don't know who you are
but you have left a scar


sausage

rockstar, sourz , rum and tears=

There's nothing more that i believe in
sacred feelings i could bathe in
dancing in a world of knowing
feelings which i know she's not showing
living the dream, she's living it too
maybe not feeling it the way you do
screaming in her soundproof room
wondering if this is her tomb
feeling feelings is a sin
in a box we must begin
to live alone with no poison
headphones drowning out the noise and
ow
my ears begin to bleed
you have planted an early seed
to reconstruct and destroy my organs
you must make up for my choices

I wrote a poem!! YAY!

disaster befalls me, my life has crashed
one by one my hopes and dreams are shattered
finally the calm and the storm have clashed
debris of lives around me are scattered
they say one bad apple spoils the whole bunch
the tree rots, falls, and crushes me under
I should have known not to stand beneath it
blocking the rain, 'cause then came the thunder
and then the lightning hit, knocking it down
the weight of the rotten tree destroys me
facedown, pouring rain, wet ground, gonna drown
more pain, more suffering, I can't get free
why cant the storm pass so i can survive?
living like this is not being alive


haha i wonder what it's about.

noodles

1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8 screens I can see through!

Since everyone is doing this, and im such a bandwagon person....

ill make a list of things i want to do with my life but probably wont be able to or have enough time for.

I started this in a comment on mikey's blog so some might be repeated...

I want to help people, i dont know/care how, as long as i make a positive difference in peoples lives.
I want to be a teacher.
I want to be a guidance councellor.
I want to work at silverthorn one day.
I want to be in a large scale musical and get paid for it.
I want to be in a movie.
I want to travel to many places, including Egypt, Greece and Cuba.
I want to stay friends with my high school friends.
I want to get a good salary and buy a nice house one day.
I want to have Amanda's house.
I want to AT LEAST have Amanda's parents bathroom.
I want to get married and be a good wife, not a shitty wife.
I want my marriage to be loving and happy.
I want to be a mom one day.
I want a happy family like mine used to be.
I want to make my friends and family proud.
I want to start dancing again.
I want to retire with a good pension and maybe move somewhere beautiful and/or tropical
(this way i can relax and be a happy old person and not be in my kids way)
I want to write a book.
I want to write many books.


I cant think of more at the moment but i know there are more.

I hate being sick.

You're like a five year old on Christmas eve....

This weekend was pretty decent. I'm glad it was 4 days long.

I got accepted to Ryerson:D so now Ryerson and York are both possibilities.

I'm working on my trent application and i cant make it sound good. It just sounds really lame, but im running out of time. Oh well.

And yes Nate, I am pretty good at holding in my anger and hiding it but trust me its there. I think u saw a slight glimpse of my anger on thursday after school. Sorry I was grumpy but talking about certain things make me that way.

The Sears play was AWESOME. I am their number one fan!!! (I'm not going to say Mel because im sure i wasnt the only person who liked it) Jessica and Vincent were awesome, and Mikey, u and Thad kicked ass with that script. I really hope it moves on, it was a fantastic play:)

HAHA! The other day I went to my locker and a certain someone who I despise was sitting at her locker. Just as I walked past her the song "Mother Uckers" came on my iPod and I couldnt help but start laughing. Perfect timing. Too many mother uckers ucking with ma shi.

FUCK. Pizza....

(I swear there is a pattern in my endings it just always ends up being pizza.....)

Let's get drunk and go to Mandarin

I was really irritable today. It was actually quite amusing. For once I told people how i felt, and it worked out pretty well. Nobody is smart enough to know that "I don't fucking care" means "I don't fucking care", but at least i voiced it. That felt nice.

Overall today was a good day though. Well actually not really... school was good. After school was aweful but thats not the kind of thing i write about in my blog. I'm going to write about....

....

What was it that Mrs. Zosim asked us to google yesterday? The origin of AIDS ? yes, I am going to go home and google "Man fucking animal". lmao I thought that was pretty funny. She is a pretty sick teacher, but at the moment my heart belongs to Mrs. Carter. I love that woman.

I never have any inspiration anymore. I can't even think of stuff to write in my blog about or stuff to write in my writers craft journal. I'm on the lookout for a positive change. So far the only one I can find is the weather getting warmer.

When I was little I always wanted to shave my legs. I would bug my mom to let me but she thought it was ridiculous that a 9 year old wanted to shave. Her reason was always that "you have blonde hair, so you cant even see it! Why would u want to shave when you are lucky enough to have pretty much invisible leg hair?". that was what everyone always said, but that pissed me off cuz its so wrong. Having blonde leg hair doesnt mean its invisible, in fact, it REFLECTS light. So whenever it was warm enough to be out in shorts, my legs had thousands of reflective hairs on them. Sure back then I didnt have much, but everyone always made the excuse that i shouldnt/couldnt shave because my leg hair was invisible. It really isnt. Just a stupid excuse.

I feel like im turning cold. Emotionally not physically. People piss me off at a higher rate than people make me happy, so I have been growing increasingly annoyed and frustrated. There are probably 6 people in the whole world that I talk to now that dont piss me off constantly. Out of the large number of ppl I interact with daily, 6 isnt enough. I dont want to sound or seem like a bitch but im so sick of people being stupid that i tend to point it out more often now. I just dont care like I used to. I refuse to be bothered and treated badly without a little retaliation once in a while.

This was a random entry.

Chicken Fingers

THAT DOES IT!

I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!

WHY IS EVERYONE IN THIS WORLD SO STUPID!?!?!

I'm ready to explode with held-in anger since September and I really don't feel like it. I just wish people would stop pissing me off so I could calm down for once instead of having all the anger built up inside. I feel like that kid coming from the dentist in the video Nathan posted. I need to scream like that kid. Totally random and out of the blue, just let it all out.

At least my blog followers are alright. I guess I should give u guys some credit for not being total selfish dickheads.

I like youtube because it is entertaining and it makes me laugh.

OH MY GOD THE OFFICE IS ON TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!

MY LIFE JUST GOT THAT MUCH BETTER!!!!!

I MEAN, SERIOUSLY. I DON'T CARE THAT PPL SUCK, THE OFFICE IS ON SOON!

That realization made my night. I'm glad I had the chance to capture it on blog.

Everytime I try to read a book they always suck. Ugh. I need a hobby. I could dismantle trains maybe....nawww....

I get into really random crazy moods when i write in my blog lately, i end up writing my whole blog in about 10 minutes and when i read back it mostly doesnt make sense. sorry about that.

I am quitting pop cold turkey. It's really hard. I crave it constantly:( I watched Repo again yesterday. I love that movie. Haha pop cold turkey. That would taste gross.

10 years from now friends wont exist. I mean, even now everyone misuses the term "friend". Friends are people that you are there for no matter what and people you stick up for. People that you trust and people who truly care about you. Going by that definition... I have about 4 friends. Going by todays gotta have em all definition, I have approximately 302. (According to facebook) Like i said, in 10 years people wont even know the true meaning of friendship and the world will be a terrible place.

I like true friends. They are pretty awesome. Im glad ive got some, because without them id have gone insane by now.

This may only be funny if you have seen the movie the neverending story, but maybe not. I'd give it a try, it made me happy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pC3n-LC3Em4&feature=channel

Anyways I'm going to stop ranting.

Pizza

Yay life! but wait...i thought second semester was supposed to get easier...

Okay so today was the first day of semester one. I was going for a low-level stress semester and i was feeling it was going to happen. But what happened today ? lets think.

At lunch i got dragged to choir and apparently i have 3 weeks to learn 3 songs before a competition in Bomingville. ( however you spell it) That was shitty news. I hate choir. I hate Mr.Kissel. Now i have to ride a short bus to a town ive never heard of with him to sing songs that i hate. Ugh.

After school I went to Miracle Worker. It was supposed to end at 5 but it ended at 7. Everyone tried to quit the play but we ended up signing on for even more work than we had in the first place. Ill be happy about this when the show is over with...but until then i shall suffer the consequences twice a week for 2-4 hours after school.

Classes were so incredibly awesome and easy. Too bad my extra-curriculars had to ruin the simplicity of having an easy and relaxing semester. Why are teachers such assholes? I'm pretty sure teachers college is a set of manipulation courses. Seriously. Teachers can manipulate your life and it sucks. First Mr.Kissel, and now Mrs. Atwell with her "dedication and believing in yourselves is the only thing standing in your way of a fantastic play. So whats it gonna be? Will you trust yourselves and believe you can do this? Or will you put the last 3 months work to waste?" That was not a direct quote but you get the jist of it. Grrrrr.... so much for getting a job.

Speaking of getting a job, I don't think I want to work at red lobster anymore. I'd rather find a job at square one or sherway that closes fairly early and doesnt require me to work basically all weekend EVERY weekend. Actually I wish i could just find money in a waterproof bag in the back ceramic part of my toilet. I should check into that....

Nope. no money. sigh. STINKY!!!!!

When I was little I used to call poo stinky, and when I had to poo I would tell people that I was going to go stinky. lol it sounded so hilarious and nobody ever knew what the fuck i was talking about. Damnit mom and dad, poo isnt a bad word to teach your kid. At least my kindergarten class wouldnt look at me so weird when I told them I was going to poo. Id be normal:(

I mooned my kindergarten class. I didnt get in trouble but for some reason I felt bad about it so I cried and told my mom when I got home. It's funny how when you are little the strangest things make you feel bad. Mooning isnt a crime. Is it? I guess it depends on the situation...? Maybe im just crazy. . . but i mean if you mooned the prime minister you would probably get in trouble. HA! mooning Stephen Harper would be fun.

Woah i have no idea where that crazy rant came from.

Sausage.

Cheers to a brand new semester

Everyone should watch Dr.Horrible's Sing Along Blog. It is amazing. Joss Whedon, need i say more?

So first semester is finally over! Good marks, good average, and no more stress. (not really, but way less) My new classes seem great, and things seem to be looking up lately.

STREETLIGHT MANIFESTO WAS AWESOME!!

btw Nathan we owe u big time, I'm sorry you had to wait around for stupid people. BUT AT LEAST IT WAS AN AMAZING SHOW!! I really enjoyed every band and had fun moshing and skanking the night away. Avoiding creeps is always fun too.

I have figured out my number one pet peeve. Are you ready?

Hypocrites. They really suck. So many people are hypocrites, I'm sure even I can be a hypocrite sometimes, which makes me hate hypocrites even more.

All i ate today was cereal, corn puffs, cookies and coke. I don't feel so good:(

tomorrow: Hour long office and flight of the conchords!! WOOHOO!!

Mikey get well soon! Hopefully we can go downtown tomorrow or at least very soon.

I can't think of what to say, so I'm just going to end this blog now.

Nothing.

Still sick... but finally getting better

As my only two readers know, i have been insanely sick for the past few days. Today i decided to stay in and watch weeds all day and now i feel better :)

Second semester is going to be so much better than first for so many reasons.

A) its going to get warmer:D
B) no more law
C) 3 interesting and pretty easy courses
D) fewer essays
E) I can finally get a job and start making cash again

(8) SEVENTEEN, CUZ IM SWEETER THAN SIXTEEN!!! (8)

lmao that song is so dumb. <3 Repo <3

Ive realized lately that i dont want stuff like most normal people do. I dont have a list of things that i want to buy or anything, and when i get money i dont like spending it. It's weird.

I dont know if i can even afford to go to Trent....or if i want to go... I know everyone always says that education should come before staying with your friends and family, but im not even sure i WANT to be a teacher so i think abandoning my life for a career that MIGHT work out is maybe not such a good plan. I didnt get enough time to figure out what i like. I know I want to help people, but thats so broad. Social work is sounding like a good idea at this point, fuck if i could go to Ryerson instead of moving away that would be awesome. And i could still work with kids, i dunno. Fuck the system. Im going to buy a van and drive across the country singing on the street corners for food and gas money. Thats how i wanna live. Screw this little boxes crap. Sure it would be nice to have a good paying job, a big house, a pool and cars one day, but if its going to take over 50% of my life to get that far, is it really worth it? Im getting over the whole having a house dream... Id love to have one but ive realized condo's are pretty fucking sweet too. and probably cheaper. Maybe not by much, but oh well.

Ive finally figured it out.

Ill just win the lottery:D Then i can skip this whole process and buy Amanda's house when her parents move and have their awesome huge party house, pool , hot tub, etc. Im so glad i thought this through:D


and I have also figured out my own unique way of ending my blog.

Pizza.

Start Blogging sounds dirty

So I've been peer-pressured into making a blog. Yup, I'm not on acid but I'm writing a blog. What kind of friends are you people?

So Repo! The Genetic Opera is amazing. Just thought I'd let you know.

I don't like Grade 12. Maybe it's just me.. (Who am i kidding, i know its not just me...) but it sucks. I remember at the end of grade 11 thinking "Wow, our group of friends has come together, everyone gets along, My marks are great, and im going to manitou next year. Grade 12 is going to be the best year of my life!" Wow what a mistake. At least its getting a little bit better... Im not really sure if it is but i think so.

Since Mikey and Nathan are the only ppl who will read this i just wanted to say HI!!!!:D

I need a topic to rant about... I'm short of idea's.

Weed's is really good. I'm only at the end of season 2 tho so STFU and don't ruin anything:)

I'm so bad at writing blogs i swear by the end of next week u guys will be telling me "it was a mistake... im sorry but your just not cut out for this blog writing business so i think u should just stop before things get worse...", just so that u don't have to read them anymore.

I want to throw penny's at ppl one day. That would be really fun.

I would rather eat monkey balls than write that stupid law essay, and u might think im joking but im actually 100% serious. If it meant i wouldnt have to write it or get marked on it id eat monkey balls in a second.

Nathan u REALLY like pizza.

Party Gun Rush is pretty awesome eh? yea and Repo too...

I've realized i LOVE comic books. does that make me an official nerd? For christmas i asked for action figures and graphic novels... Should have asked for a Segway while i was at it...
I want to go to a nerdy comic book convention, cuz amongst all the nerds id actually look pretty hot. It would be fun.

And the pizza guy was sooo ugly:(

Mikey's hot!!

see, u wont do it but i will:)

GOODNIGHT SORRY TO BORE Y'ALL!